Hi!!!! These are just some pictures of my ride back home this morning, and of a farm house near me.

Hi everyone!! How are you all doing? I said I was going to post something about last Sunday, but I procrastinated and have not yet. Sorry, bad Erik!:)

I have to go out soon, so I will make it short and talk more about it later if anybody has questions. I have been talking to a guy online for about five months. About four months into talking to him, we started texting about everyday. He seemed really neat and I wanted to get to know him more. I figured that we would never meet, because my life is in transition (or in limbo, as I call it) and we live a a little far apart:( But.......about a couple weeks ago he asked if I wanted to meet him. I was so surprised! I of course said yes.

I could blab on forever, but so I don't make this boring, the first date was amazing! I am a shy person and can be socially awkward/inept, but he was easy to talk to and asked a lot of questions, which made our conversation fun. He is really cute! All we did was walk around, eat at Pizza Hut, hang out at  his friends house, but we really enjoyed it and each others company. So, it went well. We went on a second date last week. I still felt like I was being socially awkward, but it was an awesome time! He is really intelligent (he is into linguistics and makes his own languages, how awesome and fabulous is that?!!!!!), cute smile, he has a demeanor about him when he is embarrassed or is complimented, it is really cute. Ever since the first date, we have been texting each other at least twenty times a day lol. He is very cute when he texts. Did I mention he is cute? Lol, sorry.

I know this is really haphazard writing and not very detailed, sorry about that. We are going on another date tomorrow, cant wait!!! I don't know where this will go, but either way, it has been a great experience.

I also had another small talk with my mother. Not sure whether there was any progress made or not (probably not). But nothing bad happened as a result.

Hope everybody is doing well!!

Hi everybody!!!!!
Before I get started: to a dear fellow blogger out there who has helped me out from since I started this blog, and has been having issues with his coming out to his brother, hang in there:)

Not much going on here. Hope everybody and their house survived the storms we have been having.
I am still looking for a job. I have had some interests, and two interviews so far. So, since it has only been about two and a-half months, I am still pretty optimistic in terms of finding a job within a reasonable amount of time.
In the mean-time, and am trying to organize my time better so I have more time to do some of my hobbies. I have enough time now to play the piano enough for me to get better at it, so that will be good. I am planning on working on my photography skills and on poems. Absolutely loooovvvveee poetry, just not that great at it yet. Wish I had a better camera and photoshop, but they are a little expensive for me right now, oh welllls:) I am also working on increasing my skills at web design (css, xhtml, javascript, etc...).
I am also still planning on going on one or two backpacking trips. I need to update my gear, but it won't be too expensive. Wanted to wait till it got cooler, the heat was horrendous this summer!! It will be good to be outdoors for a while, plus it would be a good opportunity for neat photos.
I am currently reading a book called  "Among Others" by Jo Walton. It is about a girl who uses her love of books, fiction, science fiction, and fantasy, as way to handle the hard times in her life. It is really neat so far. It really is for anyone who read and used/uses books and their stories as a way to just get away from the world for a bit.
That is really all that is going on......

There is something else, but I think that I should wait until after this Sunday till I put up anything on here about it. Be forewarned, I may sound like an extremely giddy preteen when I do lol. I know, I am such a tease.

Just watched Martha Wash's (It's raining men) new song and video. Pretty cool. She is going to be at a local-ish pride event near me soon.

Hie all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I have not posted in a while:( To be honest, I have not felt like posting anything for a while. Sorries!!!! So, for now I am going to post videos and just things I find of interest.

Hi alll!!!! Hey, I wanted to direct your attention to a special person who has helped me out a lot with his kind words. I only found out recently, but he is in the process of making something secret, a secret no longer. Pleeeeaaaaasssseeee if you understand what he is going through (which I imagine anybody who is reading this does:)) go read his blog http://tredflash.wordpress.com/ and send him your best thoughts!!:)

Thank you,

Erik

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! OOOOMMMMGGGGG!!!! I am almost done graduate school. I am finished June 11th. I am experiencing extreeemmmeee senioritis. It needs to be over now:( Before I was graduate student, I though they were all people who lovvveeddd school and did it because they realllly enjoyed it. I realized that they are just regular people that are just taking the program so they can get the degree and move on with their lives. Everybody I know in my program is as sick of it as I am! But man the feeling of wanting it over with is hitting me hard!!!

Heha, sorries, I just had to rant a little bit there. Other than that everything is fine. Nothing new.

Did anybody watch the first episode of the new series on HBO based on the "ice and fire" book series by George R. R. Martin? I am a big fantasy book reader, so I had to see the first show. It was okay, but they stuck to the book actually a little tooooo much, in my opinion, lol. OMG, was that graphic!!!!!! Eeeeekkkk. Though they certainly had enough nice muscly looking men though, :)

Hies. Went on a date today with a guy I met online. He seemed really sweet and nice when we talked online. We met and had dinner at applebees. It was a nice time, but he seemed to be just going through the routine. This is my actual first date (no, I am not kidding),  so I could be wrong, as I don't really know the routine, but he seemed as interested in me as he would be interested in a stick in the mud. It was a nice short out time out though. Oh wells. Any whoo...anybody doing anything fun for good Friday and the weekend?

Oh, I also rented Burlesque. The songs were fabulous!!!!! The acting was so so. I looove Cher, but her acting was just okay. So, it was a fun movie, but not special. I also just saw tangled. Omg, I really liked that movie, it has many very endearing qualities!! I highly reccomend that you rent it if you have not seen it yet.

Talk to you laters!!!!!

Erik

I have pretty much decided that I will move back into my parents place. I will tell my houseowner probably Friday and leave Friday or this weekend. I will pay him for next week even if I wont be there, because it would be the right thing to do. I feel bad doing it sooo sooooon, but it really is time to leave. Oh wellllls. My mom is okay with me moving back. She thinks it was good for me, and that I should still look for another place to stay until I find a full time job once I graduate. But she is okay with it. We came upon some understandings, so I think it will be much better than before I moved out. Plus, I will be using a room this time that will give me more privacy and all that, as my brother will be in the city for his co-op. I still feel bad about the small work issue (read the comments for last post), but I know that even she is/was annoyed it will matter little soon, and especially when I am done, which is soon as well. Might be sooner if I find a job right after I graduate!!!! I want to move back home this friday or Saturday that I will have time to do things this weekend. Plus I just don't feel like staying there a week, with the fact that I am moving looming over our heads. I don't like to wait on those kind of things. I also just want to leave there, now that the two roommates have left or are leaving as well. The place has worn out its appeal by a long shot.

Thanks for listening!!!!

Erik

Boooo...again

Hi everybody!!!!!!!!! Its me!!!!!!!!!!!! I just have not felt like posting for while, until now. Things are going okayish. Things are going pretty good-ish. I think being away and having my own room away from my parents has been good for me. However, I am tired of the place I am living in. I have two good house mates, about my age, they are realllly great. One is moving out into the city, getting his own place. I am excited for him!!! To be honest, I had a little bit of a crush on him, he is hot, but too young. My other house mate is nice, but I think he is moving soon too. The place is not that great. The owner is okay, but he is a little gross. He is kinda a gay old creepy guy. He does not really know limits, and what is innapropriate. He gets rather annoying and we all get tired of him. One other person that has lived there forever, is extremmmmeeellllyyy grumpy all the time, and is really just unpleasant to be around. He is a great guy when he is not grumpy, but he is allllwwwayyysss grumpy. Plus they have a cat that is not spayed and goes in heat, it is the absolute worst, I get sooooo pissed at that thing!!!! I have cats back home, and I loooovvveee them, but this cat....I just want to throw out the when she is in heat. The owner just does not seem to understand certain things. So, I think I will look for another place, but I don't know if I will find one for short term in the same region. I am done school in very early June, and the internship is over in late June. So I need to stay in the general area until then. Due to my budget, I have alimit as to where I can move, so I don't know if I will be able to. I can always move back home, but I don't think that would be a good idea, even if I won't like it here once my other house mate leaves. Really want to live in Philly, but the commute would be too much. Ahhhh poooo. It was really good in the beginning, it helped me figure things out and all that, but now it is time to find someplace else.
What is wrong with me???? I feel like I am never satisfied no matter what!!! Will I ever be satisfied and/or happy!!!???
On another note, I have been going to this place that has a gay night on tuesday nights. It is about half an hour away, which is a pain, but oh wellllssss. Anyways..I met this guy there a while back about two months ago...we met there for about three weeks every tuesday...then we went into the city, I found out he liked me...so we have been seeing each other. He is nice...I like him...but I am not sure if I like him enough to be boyfriends. Plus, I don't know how much he feels about me...I don't know if he wants to be boyfriends, in a relationship...or if he just wants go out and play around...not sure.
I am never satisfied. This is soooo annoying. Sorry, I am typing this while in a grumpy mood. I just feel that I am never satisfied. Grrrr.....

Anywhooo...rented burlesque and tron cant wait to watch them. Bought tangled, loooovvvveeedd it!!!!!!! It really is cute movie. Oh, I am doing a race next sunday, should be funish. It is only five miles, but is apparently challenging because of the hills.

Welp, that is all I can think of for now lol. Any questions just ask:)

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass

hmmmm, I got an empty diet green tea glass bottle, and a bottle of vaseline(the brand, lol) body and face lotion...........

Freaking absolutely fabulous song....omg..she is ammazzzing...

I think this is going to be the unofficial anthem of Erik's Kingdom..what do you think????

Hies alllll!!!!!!!!!!! Okies for new years eve I went into the city again with my houseowner...........he is a realllly great guy....if it wasn't for someone who pushes me to get out there and go....like him.....I would not..ever....have gone out to these places....bless him....it is just my shynesss...introvertednesss...or something.....not sure....reallly glad he has been doing this though.

We went into the city looking for a gay bar to spend and celebrate new years at.....we found one and a parking space....really close to midnight...about 11:00, but we made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

House owner gave me a party hat and a whistler noise maker thing a few minutes before midnight. We were at the dancing floor of the bar/club. When new years came.....houseowner got....no...pushed me up onto one of those stands for dancing....lol....I did....was embarassed, can't dance attt allll....not because I plain can't...but because I have danced about twice in my entire life...both times being very recently....yes this event is one of those times:) Soooo...I danced...sorta....on one of the stand thingys...so did my houseowner....eventually some others did the same thing....it was a fabulous time and experience. I was embaraasseeedddd....but I reallllly enjoyed it at the same time!!!!! Annnnndddddd.....nooo...nothing happened there either....lol. After that, I just stood at a part of the room, and just moved/danced by myself....nobody was really talking to people they did not come with....was not surprised....I think of new years celebration as more of a couples thing.

Soooooo, that is it for now....if anybody has any questionssss, just ask....want me to elaborate on anything or anything like that....feel free to let me know...I will:)

Thankies alllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HIES AAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes it has been a while!!!! Sorrrrrrriiiieeeesssss:) I just have not had the motivation the past few weeks....not sure why.....I think it is partiallly due to the fact that I have been getting home sooooo late from the gym, and I am sooo tired after that. Plus not much has been happening.....weeellllll, things have beeen happening....but not specific things that I want to happen.......*sigh*......

I will start at christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the thursday before christmas I went to my firrrssssttt dragshow!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was awwwwweeeesome!!!!!!OOOOMMMMMMGGGGGG!!!!!!!!! IIII HHHHAAADDD SSSSOOOOO MMUUUUCCCHHH FFFUUUNNN!!!
FABULOUSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear if those straight people would just loosen up....they would have a blast as wellll, lol.

My houseowner and I went into the city to go to a gay bar that had a drag show that night. The person who was supposed to show up was sick, so somebody else headlined the event. It was zaney, campy, and fabulous!!!!!! We allll had fun!!!!! They sang goood songs tooo!!! And yessss....there was eye candy, plenty!!!! Houseowner asked me about what I thought of one of the managers.....asked me if I saw the one with the boots on.....said no.....(who looks at his shoes?)....he said he had a ambercrombie shirt on....I said nopes, he had a aeropostle shirt on.....I was right, he thought I wasn't paying attention, lol.

Sooooo....in case you have not realized/guessed it....I had a lllllooottt of fun there:) Nooo, nothing happened....*sigh*. My houseowner saw some a couple who were there.....kissing and being alllll lovey dovey.....he said it reminded him of how he was when he was first getting out there....how sweet they were......It was sweet....but it also just got me feeling down...from wanting exactly that reallly badly.

I will talk about new years next



Thankies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Erik